Hurt.

I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

the only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

the old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

but I remember everything

What have I become?

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know

goes away in the end

You could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stain of time

the feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here. 

What have I become?

my sweetest friend

Everyone I know

goes away in the end

You could have it all

my empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

If I could start again

a million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way...

Indifference.

Everyday i romanticize you less and less, and i hate you more n more, i dont know if it's a good thing or not,but for now,it's a right thing...Deep inside, i dont want to hate you, but the way things are, i just have to, to keep me sane and moving on with my life. But someday, i wanna feel indifference. That i dont love you neither hate you. Its like you dont even exist in my history. And i dont want to know you, you'll be nothing to me. You'll be erased.