Looking back at 6 years ago, i was young, very2 young when i found love. To
me, it's a process of learning and growing, therefore i made so many stupid
mistakes in order to be what i am today. Now when i think of that, i realized
you must and should make mistakes in your life so you can learn from it and
grow up. You need that mistakes, to evolve, to change. Back then, when i was still
in relationship, i was really immature, paranoid, insecure, narcissistic,
arrogant, overreact, inconsiderate, egocentric, pessimist, ungrateful, stubborn,
ignoramus, hot tempered, irrational, condescending jerk and surprisingly lack of self esteem and
self respect. To conclude them all, in other word, i was very2 negative. I
always wanna win an argument, even at the cost of a relationship. And that was
so foolish and immature of me. When i was in relationship, it taught me so much
to improve myself to better, little by little. But just right when i think i'm
about to change and improve myself to be a better guy, i lost the relationship. It's gone. And I really didnt see it coming, and i never thought that would happened
just when i already become a changed man, positive person. I was too blind to
see that i had that coming.
But i guess that's the price i had to pay anyway, for all the wrong deeds
and sins i've done. I can honestly say, i learned my lesson, even it seems a
bit too late. And i learned it in a very2 hard way. It nearly killed me. To look at the bright side, if it wasnt for
this breakup, i would never learn to appreciate life, and trying be a better
person. I cant believe i said this, but technically i really need that tragedy
to happened. Maybe i dont see it back then, but now, my eyes and my mind were
wide open and clearer. I deserve all the pain and suffering. Really2 deserve it. With everything that happened, i can either feel sorry
for myself or treat what has happened as a gift. It’s an opportunity to
grow. And I dont want it to be an
obstacle to keep me from growing. I have to learn from that.
So the next time when i found love again, i mean new love, i will never
ever ever taking it for granted. I mean what kind of idiot who screw up for a
second time right? I wont be that idiot again. Not anymore.
The more difficult it is to reach your destination, the more you’ll remember
and appreciate the journey.
