1st step...

1st step to happiness = i find the happiness in the job i have now. Good environment, good colleagues, tambah2 lagi dapat bekerja sekali with my bestfriend of 5 years. I hope this is the 1st step for me to smile again, even just a little bit. Aku harap sekurang2nya aku dapat menimbulkan inspirasi dalam diri aku, berkeyakinan untuk jadi lebih kreatif, tidak menoleh ke belakang lagi, terus melihat kedepan dan kedepan. Dan sekurang2nya passion aku terhadap kerja design ni mampu timbul dan reemerge kembali, n i got the feeling with this new job, i will make the best out of it, coz for the past 2 months all my passion were kinda dead n destroyed completely, which is my passion in art, design and even music ( i even quit my band). Now, i think i'm back, insya Allah. I wanna feel whole again. Next....

I Quit My Job.

The tragedy that i'm going through has been the trigger i needed to my system, to get my life back on track. I started to appreciate my family more - something I had never really consider before. And most recently, I quit the job that I was unhappy in, started to search a new career interest that will make me happy. Surprisingly, after quitting job, i feel so relieved. It feels so good. Sometimes things need to fall apart to make way for better things. I believe I may end up having an entire new perspective on my life. I wanna start fresh....

I gain a new perspective of what i really2 wanna do in my life. And the main question is: what i really wanna do for living? I just realized maybe for a long term, it's not gonna be graphic design, I dont wanna do shit just to please and satisfy some strangers called customer and client? If I wanna do art, I will do it for myself, as a hobby, not for some other assholes. I learn that if u hate the job, the people, the working environment, just quit. It’s that easy, u just up n quit. Besides i'm too young to get stuck in unhappy situation (someone taught me this..)

It's important to have a job that makes a difference, especially to yourself. I had waste and struggle five years of studying and doing graphic, it's so exhausting. So why the hell i need to do and repeat the same shit, in my career? I decided to take this as my stepping stone to another career that makes me happy, and i hope i will find one eventually. I dont want this  “I hate my job” path travel down the ever dangerous “I hate my life” path. I want something that makes me feel alive. Those who working their ass off just to please others were already dead, according to me.

I gotta find what i really wanna do, and be passionate about it. I dont wanna get up in the morning just to 'work', i wanna get up in the morning, doing something that i'm passionate about, and get paid for it, eventhough money is not really the case. In the meantime, i just have to keep searching, not just for the job, but what i'm really passionate and happy about....